okay so there's this thing where i'll be in a crowded room — like really crowded, people everywhere, loud — and i'll feel the loneliest i've felt all week. not like "oh i'm alone" lonely, but like i'm watching everyone through a window and they can't see me. and then i come home and sit in my apartment by myself and suddenly i feel fine? what IS that. is my brain just allergic to people or am i broken
