there's this moment late at night when the house is completely quiet and i realize i haven't heard a human voice in hours. not even on the radio. and i think about calling someone but i don't know what i'd say. 'hey just wanted to hear a voice' sounds too needy and 'hi how are you' feels like lying because i don't actually want to talk about how i am. so i just sit there in the quiet and tell myself it's fine. and it is. mostly.