okay i need to ask something and please be honest because i'm genuinely trying to figure out if this is just me or if this is a universal experience. you know when you meet someone and you can't stop thinking about them but it's not even in a romantic way at first? like your brain just keeps circling back to them like a weird orbit and you keep noticing small things about them that feel like they matter even though logically you know they probably don't. and then one day you realize oh wait. this is a crush. it crept up on me and i didn't even notice until i was already in way too deep. how does that even happen. how do you not notice yourself falling.