okay so i've been awake for 19 hours straight just thinking about tomorrow and my brain won't shut up. like what if i show up and it's not what i thought it was gonna be. what if i built it up too much in my head. what if i get there and realize i should've just stayed home. but also what if it's actually sick and i finally feel like i'm doing something that matters. i hate that i do this every time something good is about to happen i just spiral into what-ifs until i'm exhausted
